"Growing up I have never been one of the popular guys, but I have always had a nice, loving, & loyal group of friends. I have learned to be comfortable with being the underdog. I have also learned to be confident & comfortable in the skin I am in. I have definitely never been rich, but somehow I have always had what I needed, especially right now & by the grace of God, even though I may be currently struggling financially to some from the outside in, I am RICH in so many other spectrums of my life that the money reflected in bank account (or lack there of on some days) really doesn't even phase me. I just know that this new path I am taking in my career & life under the name "TARZAN" will soon reap so many monetary & life benefits that my entire world will change for the better as I continue striving to inspire & bless so many others with my gifts & talents.
As an adolescent & teenager, there were days I would question my existence. The thoughts, feelings, music, clothing, et cetera that I connected with so deeply, the "cool kids" (that I sometimes looked up to) would tease, shun, & ridicule me for, including my own family ... & let's not even mention my lifestyle choices. All of this brought on depression, anxiety, & even a few failed suicide attempts. As I grew older, I became more comfortable & confident in what made me happy. I began to mature in my skin & learn to love who I am. Two years ago, when I decided to halt the pursuance of conquering the Commercial Dance Industry & redirect my focus on the Health/Fitness Industry by using my Pole & Dance training, I was scared. Fucking terrified. I was not sure on how it would be received or if it would be successful. These days I am no longer afraid. The feedback I hear daily from students & followers, by the way whom I ALL consider to be my family, is what motivates me to keep going & solidifies everything I'm doing. TARZAN is more than just an Entertainer & Teacher, but a superhero to some & as crazy as it is to me to get so much attention all at once, I am becoming comfortable with it. As Trevis, I may or may not now or ever have been liked or fit in with my peers, but I do know that I’m loved by many others ... & most importantly: I love myself. I love Trevis. I love TARZAN. I am far, far, FAR away from perfect ... & that's totally fine. I seriously do not want to be. I am completely comfortable with my labeled imperfections. If I was perfect, I would be God ... & quite honestly I am NOT feeling that type of responsibility right now--or probably EVER. I'm happy being me. I have zero complaints about that. I am so blessed. I am thankful & I am happy to be alive ... & to everyone that does not understand or even like it, guess what: I love you too because I WOKE UP LIKE DIS!
Thank you, @readytostare! Your movement & powerful message is truly redefining what the world views as being ***FLAWLESS. I couldn't be more honored & humbled to be apart of the movement as well. For that may God continue blessing you, sis!
*twists & waves hands in front of my face* #IWOKEUPLIKEDIS! #IWOKEUPLIKETHIS!
Tarzan is flawless*
*being flawless isn’t the absence of flaws; it’s the absence of fear
This is Tarzan's story; follow him on Instagram @trevisjt.
This post was originally published on May 11, 2014